I
can feel it here, inside, under my skin. It begins just beneath the
muscles in my back, goose-flesh rippling against the bones. There’s a
writhing along my vertebrae. Maggots. Terror solidifies there, trying to
build, making my body an ill fit. It is trying to break through, but
hasn't yet. I fight it. The sensation grows; I try to convince myself
that it's just a feeling, crawling along the nerves of my spine like a
repressed shudder between my shoulder blades. Phantom wings trapped
beneath my skin, twitching and pulling. My skin crawls as I begin to
doubt that this is just in my head. There is really something there,
hiding along my bones and inside my muscles and my nerves. It spreads
its arms and wings and legs and stretches luxuriantly. I feel something
wrapping around my ribcage and creaking against my sternum. My stomach
clenches and I want to vomit but do not feel nauseous. My heart can't
decide whether to pound or to flutter. Tears prick my eyes and I cry out
at the intensity of the horrid itching that has replaced the
goose-flesh ripples inside. I feel the slithering of some plurality of
limbs moving along my torso and my arms and legs, buds pushing out from
the sides of my body, not yet bursting through. The skin on my back
stretches with painful sharpness and I experience a burning like
childbirth as my back opens up. My fingers seize and I watch in
horrified awe as something sharp and black begins to protrude from each
fingertip. The flesh rends and peels back, revealing scaly claws where
smooth skin once lay. The scales seem to absorb light, yet they
reflect, like oil, a diseased rainbow. Black. I feel new, supernumerary
arms emerging from their buds on my sides, tearing through, flexing and
seeking freedom from their cage of meat. The flesh of my face begins to
stretch with the same sharpness as my spine. I feel sharp ridges emerge,
splitting my skin, finally shedding my former flesh like a husk. I
stretch my maw in an experimental yawn and tap my newly emerged talons
against the ground, then leap skyward with a tremendous whoosh of my leathery wings.
With a Flapping of Wings by Tena Kolakowski is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs 3.0 Unported License.
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